I have one question. “How in the hell did my mother go through menopause without being under a physician’s care”? She had to be hella strong in order to do that. Come to think of it, she must have really loved us too. Why do I say that? Because we all survived it.
Okay, I’ve mentioned previously I’m perimenopausal. In my opinion, symptoms of menopause are comparable to PMS, only three times worse. It feels like I’m PMSing every two weeks now. You heard me; bloating, mood swings, cramping, tiredness, etc., every two weeks. I am aware of increased mood swings, but I can’t seem to control them. Come to think of it, I don’t want to. Sometimes they’re so bad I can’t stand my damn self. Hot flashes? All I can say is thank God for nappy hair ’cause if I had a perm, I’d be one tore up sista.
I remember laughing when I read that memory and concentration may be affected. To myself I’m saying, “It can’t be that serious.” Well, it was funny until I got to the point where I couldn’t remember whether or not I took my medicine. I take my medicine daily at the same time and couldn’t remember taking it 15 minutes later. I guess you know it’s no longer a laughing matter, right?
What I whine about the most is the fact that all I want is to be “alone”. Don’t get me wrong, I love my hubby and kids dearly, but I need my space. There should be some type of mini menopause weekend getaways, a menopause resort, or even a menopause cruise destination. Believe me, you’ll get your “alone” time as no family members will want to go there with you. Hmmm………sounds like a good business venture to me.
If this is what I have to look forward to over the next couple of years, then I’m screwed. One thing I always hated was not being in control of things, and this is definitely something I can’t control or make go away. I can treat it symptomatically, but that’s about it. I don’t know when a mood swing is going to hit, I can’t predict a hot flash, and I can kiss a 28-day cycle goodbye. Being perimenopausal sucks!!
Stay tuned for more general ramblings about perimenopause in the near future.
Anybody else dealing with perimenopause/menopause?